Adopting brings me to my knees

Our home study is complete. Soon we will be sending a Dossier to China. The Dossier is the collection of documents that the Chinese government uses to analyze a prospective adopter's suitability. After that, the referral could come at any time... We are hoping to adopt a special needs child, either girl or boy. There is a yearning in our home for this child to come in and make this his or her forever home. Soon my child...
Our tears flow freely as we consider who this child might be and we imagine the eyes that will shine back at the remainder of their forever family. Our hearts wait for God's referral. We wait also to find out how to pay for this adoption... we honestly don't have a clue where that money is coming from but we do know that Our Father will provide. It all leaves us on our knees, hoping, dreaming, believing...
Tonight I can almost hear the voice of our child